I haven’t written anything in ages, since august holy fuck, which is mainly because I felt like I had nothing worth while to write but now I do, so i’m just going to blabber on for a bit.
I’m at college now, well I have been since September, but as I said, I haven’t written in ages. I’m trying to work hard, I want all A’s in my subjects and I know that if I work hard and put in all the effort I probably can do it but sometimes that’s harder to do in practice. I also now have a job, as a waitress, which is a very shitty job because some customers can be right arseholes, so here’s my advice to you; please if you ever go out for a meal and something is wrong tell your waitress/waiter as soon as possible because they will fix any issue you have immediately, so when you tell them don’t be rude about it, don’t shout at them, or insult them for the love of god, they did not cook your food, they would not know if your chicken was dry, it’s such a massive fucking downer when customers treat you like shit at work, it doesn’t happen often but when it does it pisses you off so much, so be nice to people, they’re only human. Apart from some bad customer I experiences I enjoy working, I’ve met loads of new people and it’s nice to have my own income, even if I get a shitey pay of £3.79 an hour, fuck you minimum wage.
I made a new years resolution this year, to get fitter, so out of the 10 days of this year so far I have been running 7/10 days, which is fairly good for me, normally I can’t dedicate myself to exercise but i’m really trying. I’m also planning on eating healthier, which was supposed to start at the beginning of the month also but yeah, my friends are bad influences on me seeing as we go to town every lunch at college (goddamn you mcdonalds and subway) so i’m going to try and eat healthily starting on monday ((I WILL DO THIS)).
I’m really not happy with the way I look, I have an idea why, which is mainly to do with the fact that I’ve got this fucked up idea in my head that boys only like girls who are skinny and pretty, which isn’t true and I know it isn’t but I use it as an excuse to put my mind at rest. It’s kind of like I think that if I was skinnier boys would like me, but they won’t, and it’s a stupid way to think because people should like you for your personality not depending on how much you weigh but I can’t get that into my head. In reality boys just don’t like me, I am a repellent, I don’t know why, maybe I just haven’t met anyone who understands me yet, and that sounds cringey as fuck but it’s true. I thought going to a college with 2,000 students would give me a chance to meet someone, well a male, who was more compatible with me, but nope.
That’s about it for now folks, hope you’re all doing well and happy new year n stuff